After last weeks’ road trip, and totally foregoing Weight Watchers, I am finding it really difficult to “get back on the horse” as it were.
I loved the freedom of eating what I wanted without worrying about it, even though I was restricted by my dietary issues the whole time. I did bring my own food, but we ate dinner out several times, with little to no repercussions.
Once we returned home, I resolved to resume my “good habits” and restart the diet. Alas, this did not happen. I found that I did not want to return to my restricted diet. I had tasted freedom, and I was not going back anytime soon.
A new weigh in looms on Monday. We were on the road last Monday, and we had decided not to weigh in once we returned home. I did though, and had only gained .2 pounds. I also got on the scale today, just to see where I am at, and have lost that .2. Okay, not too bad.
I still want to reach my goal of losing twenty pounds, but the bouncing scale has made that goal seem unreachable. It’s really discouraging. I find myself slacking on weighing and measuring food, exercising and generally caring about what I put in my mouth. I find myself sliding back into old habits. Yes, I still want to lose weight, but the effort of doing so is slowly wearing me down. I have had several setbacks and failed ideas about different methods (carb cycling). I am finding it hard to find the motivation to continue.
I find I don’t want to wait until reward days to eat the foods I love. I find myself eating too many carbs.
Today, two days before weigh in, I will try to get back on track. I will weigh and measure my meals today and try to be accountable.
Stay tuned for a new progress report this coming Monday.